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10 May 2012 @ 08:22 am
In case anyone's interested: The full version of my take on Catherynne M. Valente's Silently and Very Fast read in the light of Donna Haraway's A Cyborg Manifesto is here - The Crown of Being.
The breaking of taboos is really the core of what Elefsis is, and why it relates so powerfully to Haraway’s cyborg: Elefsis is essentially transgressive in almost every important respect. Every aspect of its existence is the violation of a rule. This, for Haraway, is a great deal of what a cyborg is: a total overturning of an established order of meaning, understanding, and identity. Cyborgs are transgressive; that’s why they’re so powerful:

There is no drive in cyborgs to produce total theory, but there is an intimate experience of boundaries, their construction and deconstruction. There is a myth system waiting to become a political language to ground one way of looking at science and technology and challenging the informatics of domination– in order to act potently.

For Haraway and Valente both, this transgression is not something that is consciously done – it’s merely an artifact of something being what it is.

For cyborgs the only verb that matters is to be.

Cat Valente called it "an amazing piece of critical work" so I was kind of over the moon about that, a little.

The rest of life... I don't fucking know. Not so great at the moment. Not sure why. I was so pumped after comps, even with the exhaustion, and I'm still really having a hard time picking myself back up and being motivated about anything. Even writing is hard a lot of the time right now. I'm about 45k words into my dystopian angel novel and I'm still pushing through it but it's in that awful fuzzy stage where I'm not clear on where I started or on where I'm going--this is despite the fact that this is the most completely plotted long work I've yet written. I'd hit this point regardless, because guess what, this is just what writing books is actually like, but it's being made worse by the fact that I'm generally fuzzy anyway.

I have a dissertation proposal draft that I've barely looked at. I have a paper to revise, possibly split into two papers, and submit. And I just. Can't.

I know a depressive period when I hit it. I know them well enough to know that I'll come out of it and be okay. But right now I feel like all the shit I should be working on is slipping away from me and I'm frankly worried about the state things will be in when I really feel like I can function at peak efficiency again.

And honestly? I'm sort of wondering what three years of a really demanding graduate program has done to my brain.

I'm looking seriously at going on the job market next summer, even if it's just putting out feelers. I don't want an R1 job (God, please, no). I don't even necessarily want a tenure track job. I want A Job, preferably somewhere far away from the Mid-Atlantic region of the country. Preferably somewhere where I don't feel like I'm just kind of getting by until something better happens. But that's not going to go well if I don't get my shit together.

I feel weird complaining about this, given that I can at least fake a high degree of functionality most of the time. I guess to a lot of people I look like I'm doing fine. But this last semester I've felt like the mask slipped away and I'm not sure what the hell I'm doing anymore. Why am I here? What am I ultimately hoping to get out of this? Three years ago I went into grad school at least in part because I was literally unemployable almost everywhere else and there was no fucking way I was going back to temping or retail. Now I have an MA, I'm officially a PhD candidate (the paperwork finally went through), and I still feel sort of like I'm just faking it because I can't cut it out in the Real World.

I don't believe in the Real World, by the way. Not anymore.

It's very weird to feel like I'm failing at living up to standards that don't actually exist.

I believe in sociology. I believe it's really important, beyond a job. I still feel that when I teach--which is something I'm still sure I enjoy and which I'm still fairly sure I'm sort of good at. I'm closing my final Social Problems class today with this quote from Audre Lorde:
Each of us is called upon to take a stand. So in the days ahead, as we examine ourselves and each other, our works, our fears, our differences, our sisterhood and survivals, I urge you to tackle what is most difficult for us all: self-scrutiny of our complacencies, the idea that since each of us believes she is on the side of right, she need not examine her position.

I believe in that. I believe this is important, necessary work.

And I believe in stories, because I know I'm good at those, and I know I love them--right now I'm pretty sure I love them more than anything else I do. Even when they're hard and every word is something I have to struggle for.

And I believe that there's a lot less distance between the two primary things I do than there might appear to be. I'm just not sure yet how it all fits together.

Figuring Things Out is something else I don't believe in anymore, incidentally.

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27 April 2012 @ 12:44 pm
Realized today that not only have I not posted in a really long time--for me--but I haven't done a blog roundup for a while, either. So while it's true that I've been badly neglecting the authoblog, I have at least been putting in my weekly dues over at Cyborgology.

Here's what I've done in the last few weeks: )

Whew.

This has been a weird week. I've been having lots of feelings. Some of them have been borderline incapacitating. I've been keeping functional. I had a really great lecture yesterday. I'm writing every day. I caved and got Netflix streaming and I've finally started going through Buffy (I know, I KNOW SHUT UP I'M DEPRIVED).

The semester is almost over. We get by.

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19 April 2012 @ 01:32 pm
Using this in class today in a lecture on health and inequality.



oh my god show

Somehow I have to not cry in front of my students.

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19 April 2012 @ 11:05 am
Not a lot to report--hence quietude. The conference went great. Next year I really want to do something with technology and futurism and fiction--either a panel or a symposium. It would depend on who I could rope into it. Either way, I'm sure by April of next year I'll be rending my cloak and lamenting that I was ever so stupid as to get involved in such a shit-show three years in a row, but I think that's kind of how these things go in general.

Speaking of shit-shows, what the hell is even with the Flyers/Pens series? I mean seriously.

Further speaking of shit-shows, I am about to get hit by a freight train of grading.

However: I'm making a preliminary editing pass through Line & Orbit in preparation for Megh and me getting down to serious business with our editor at Samhain in about a month, and that most wonderful of writerly things is happening: falling in love with your own book all over again. You guys. You guys. I fucking love this book. I love the characters and I love the worldbuilding and I love the writing. It doesn't even feel like my book anymore. It's just this thing that I love that I'm lucky enough to get to work with.
At last Ixchel sat back to admire the complex layout she'd made, sipping speculatively at her tea. "You're a strange one, Adam Yuga," she murmured. "In your bones and in your starshine. You Protectorate... all those little bits and bobbles you put in your poor burdened cells. Muffles the dance, perfect. Enhancements. Fixing up your code and yourselves. It's unnatural."

She reached out, caressing one pad set to the side. "Kisin, the death star. It always shows itself when I'm reading Protectorate. You're so manufactured, the stars can't divine the difference between you and a brick."

"I’m not a brick," Adam said, self-consciously running his hands up his forearms.

"No," Ixchel said, barking a laugh. "Delta Orionis, the Orion stars, the strength of a man and his muscle, his core..." She trailed off, watching him squirm. "Sitting in the position of love and what goes with loving. No ladies for you, Yuga? No wives waiting for you back home?"

A flush crept into Adam's face, though he tried to push it back. "I don't know what you're—"

"Oh, line and orbit," said Ixchel, lifting her hands. "All that worry and that fear, perfect. And the Protectorate think themselves so advanced. It is a good thing that you mutilate your code the way you do, tacking years onto the end of your life, for you surely cut it short with all that care for breeding."

"Our ways aren’t—"

"Your ways are not natural, child," she said, and she sounded suddenly tired and sad. "So much pain, you know," she said, gesturing the pads. "None of our own carry burdens the way that you do. It is... unfortunate to see it in you."

Adam huffed a dry laugh. "It hasn't been an easy few months."

"It’s more than a few months," Ixchel murmured. “It’s a lifetime inside the bubble of perfection. We’re messy creatures, and perfection doesn't sit well with us. We're all red and cluttered on the inside.”

She reached across the table and laid her hand on his. "Tell me, Adam Yuga, of your perfect bubble or Ashwina's rambling old hull, which feels more like home?" She squeezed his wrist before he could answer. "Think on it, child, before you come to an answer. You might be surprised."

A fair amount has to be cut--not as much as I was afraid of at first, but some. Including some stuff that I really love. So one thing I'm considering doing is releasing those cut scenes/chapters as bloggish freebies for promotional purposes, if my lovely co-author agrees.

I'm sure there's an excellent reason why it's a bajillion degrees in the office today, when they're insisting that the AC is on.

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14 April 2012 @ 08:32 am
So I haven't really been talking about it at all here aside from some bitchery last night, but I'm on the committee for Theorizing the Web again this year--conference here at UMD dedicated to social theory and technology--and it's happening today. Well, Sunny, you're saying, why do I care about that? I can't exactly get to College Park, MD in half an hour before it starts.

SHUT YOUR FACE

Seriously, we're all HIGH TECH UP IN THIS BUSINESS and we're actually going to be livestreaming all day. So if you like social theory and you like technology and you like a combination of the two, you can watch here.

You can also follow discussion on Twitter with #TtW12.

THEORIZE ALL THE WEBS

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11 April 2012 @ 08:34 am
So from good news to bad news. Bear with me, I need to rant for a minute.

From UMD's paper, The Diamondback: ‘Doomsday’ budget looms over legislators, students.
As the clock struck midnight at Monday’s legislative session, the state Senate and House passed a balanced operating budget but failed to pass a bill that would generate enough revenue for the state.

Many state lawmakers called it a “doomsday” budget because of the severe expected cuts to health care and education if a special session isn’t called; higher education overall could see a $63 million cut, and the system could receive $50 million less in state funding, according to university lobbyist Ross Stern.

“We’re clearly upset and very concerned about the budget as passed; the only way to solve that is for a special session to occur,” system lobbyist P.J. Hogan said. “I think everything will be on the table from significant tuition increases to reduction of student services, larger class sizes, probably fewer sections; it’s going to be painful one way or another.”

Oh, but wait! At least we got money for new fucking buildings!
Although the large reductions are in place, the House and Senate passed a capital budget — which is the money that funds construction and planning projects — that includes millions of dollars in funding to this university, affording the university all of the projects they requested from the governor.

“Everything got through that we wanted,” Stern said. “We’re very excited and happy about that.”


I'm noticing something. And maybe it's not new but I feel like it is. I'm noticing a marked lack of shame on the part of a lot of public figures regarding the absolutely fucking shameful things that come out of their mouths.

Next to the War on WomenCaterpillars, this looks like small beans, and it really pretty much is. But that doesn't mean it's not shitty. I'm sorry, how exactly do you expect anything to get better, economically, if we're going to charge students more for a shittier overall product? How exactly are things possibly going to improve if we're doing that? No, really, I want someone to tell me, because in the face of all the cuts and all the austerity measures, I haven't heard anyone deliver anything like a coherent or convincing explanation of how that's supposed to fucking work.

These kids are taking on tens of thousands of dollars of non-transferable debt. We're giving them a bad education. And I guess the solution to that is to charge them more and make the quality of what we deliver... worse?

Here's how things have worked for me: I TAed for a year and a half and then I was tossed into my own class absolutely fucking cold. I got next to no formal training. As far as I know, no one did more than glance at my syllabus. No one's observed me lecture. No one's done any workshopping with me. No one has taught me anything--formally--about how to teach a college class. It was like, okay here's sixty undergrads GOOD FUCKING LUCK WITH THAT

You know what? I could do anything. I really think I could. I could lie to them. I could not show up for half the classes. And unless someone specifically went over my head and complained, I think I would probably get away with it. And you know? Thank God I give a fuck. But I'm making shit money and being charged about $800 a year in fees to give a fuck (because I'm only an employee in as much as it suits them to consider me so, and I'm only a student in as much as it suits them to consider me so), so if I do, it's not because I'm being financially incentivized to do so.

'Free market' my ass. My ass.

Some of these kids get years into college before they're taught by tenured faculty. Think about that for a second, juxtaposed with what they're paying in tuition and fees. And think about the fact that often that's a good thing, because tenured faculty often don't even want to teach. Because they're not here to teach. They're here to publish and write grants. And I recognize that all of that has its place, I mean--I like money, okay? I'm a fan. But I look around and I really wonder what the purpose of the academy is anymore. What are we all doing here? What are we charging these kids for? What are our jobs?

Apparently we're here to construct buildings that we won't have the staff to fill.

I call Intro to Social Problems my Here's Why Everything Sucks course. Seriously, the first day: I stand up in front of the class and tell them that this course is fucking depressing. That it will make them angry. That it should make them angry. And things like this want me to get up there again and say you're all being screwed. All of you. You shouldn't even be here. You should be standing outside of the administration building and the president's mansion (his fucking MANSION, that he IS HAVING US BUILD FOR HIM and yes the money is private but STILL) and the State House and FUCKING SCREAMING YOUR HEADS OFF ALL DAY EVERY DAY until someone gives you some kind of explanation for why it's okay to TOSS YOUR GENERATION UNDER A FUCKING BUS.

I feel like the last year has been sort of revelatory as far as my relationship with academia goes: I want to be part of it, but I want my part in it to be very, very limited. I like teaching. I like blogging; I like public sociology. I like research when I get to actually work on what I enjoy. But the system is badly broken and I refuse to hitch my entire identity and future to it. Does that make me a shitty grad student? Fine. Academia is shitty anyway so I feel like that's actually pretty much appropriate.

But cynicism isn't comforting and it doesn't make anything less shitty.

We should be doing better for these kids. They deserve better. They do.

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10 April 2012 @ 10:05 pm
My SFnal porny thing "Catch & Release" from Like a Veil: Erotic Tales of the Arabian Nights is going to be one of the stories in Circlet Press's Fantastic Erotica: The Best of Circlet Press 2008-2012 anthology. Right now the release date is October of this year, ebook and trade paperback.

Yaaay.

Not much else to report today. Lectured on Foucault and sexuality. Not sure how much got through. Went out with a bunch of cohort guys after and drank and was all WHY ARE WE THE WAY WE ARE AND WHAT ARE WE DOING WITH OUR LIVES

Good times.

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09 April 2012 @ 11:00 pm
Contract signed, so it's official now and I can yell about it:

Samhain Publishing is going to release Line & Orbit, my big gay SF novel what I cowrote with [info]_shades_, early next year. Ebook first, trade paperback to follow a few months after.

I'm going to get really, really obnoxious about this, fair warning.

flaaaaaaaaaaaaail

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08 April 2012 @ 07:08 pm
Happy Easter to all those celebrating! A very happy Sunday to those who aren't!

Christmas is probably the feast day I get the most warm-and-fuzzy over, but I have to say, the part of me that appreciates great stories gets a much bigger kick out of Easter. And a kick is what it is--it's not altogether comfortable. It's not meant to be so. It's especially not meant to be comfortable for anyone in power.

For those without power? For the oppressed and the marginalized? People of Color, QUILTBAG folks, women, the chronically ill and the disabled, the poor, everyone left out and voiceless and forgotten, faithful and faithless together? This is their day. This is the day where love wins.

Let no one grieve being poor,
for the universal reign has been revealed.

Let no one lament persistent failings,
for forgiveness has risen from the grave.

Let no one fear death,
for the death of our Saviour has set us free.

--The Easter Sermon of John Chrysostom


And Rachel Held Evans concludes a four-part essay series on the Women of the Passion with a great post on Mary Magdalene, Apostle to the Apostles.

Far from being easily deceived, women were the first to make the connection between Christ’s teachings from Scripture and his resurrection, and the first to believe these teachings when they mattered the most. For her valor in twice sharing the good news to the skeptical male disciples, the early church honored Mary Magdalene with the title of Apostle to the Apostles.

That Christ ushered in this new era of life and liberation in the presence of women, and that he sent them out as the first witnesses of the complete gospel story, is perhaps the boldest, most overt affirmation of their equality in his kingdom that Jesus ever delivered.

And yet too many Easter services begin with a man standing before a congregation of Christians and shouting, “He is risen!” to a chorused response of “He is risen indeed!”

Were we to honor the symbolic details of the text, that honor would always belong to a woman.


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07 April 2012 @ 11:33 am
And here I am, still alive, still in the world. It’s my intention to carry on being alive in the world, well, until I die. At Easter I’ll go to Glasgow and see what science fiction fandom is like. Next June I’ll take my exams and pass them, and have qualifications. Then I’ll do A Levels, as it best works out. I’ll go to university. I’ll live, and read, and have friends, a karass, people to talk to. I’ll grow and change and be myself. I’ll belong to libraries wherever I go. Maybe eventually I’ll belong to libraries on other planets. I’ll speak to fairies as I see them and do magic as it comes my way and prevents harm — I’m not going to forget anything. But I won’t use it to cheat or to make my life unreal or go against the pattern. Things will happen that I can’t imagine. I’ll change and grow into a future that will be unimaginably different from the past. I’ll be alive. I’ll be me. I’ll be reading my book. I’ll never drown my books or break my staff. I’ll learn while I live. Eventually, I’ll come to death, and die and I’ll go on through whatever unknowable thing is supposed to happen to people when they die. I’ll die and rot and return my cells to life, in the pattern, whatever planet I happen to be on at the time.

That’s what life is, and how I intend to live it.

--Jo Walton, Among Others


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05 April 2012 @ 09:12 am
Stolen from... fuck, a bunch of people.

1. Go to page 77 (or 7) of your current wip.
2. Go to line 7
3. Copy down the next 7 lines/sentences – and post them as they’re written.

From page 77 of the dystopian cyborg angel thing. )

I'm in that weird kind of in-between state that I think generally happens in spring semesters. Except, thanks to comps, my semester feels as though it finished very early and I'm sort of drifting around while everyone else loses their minds. It's not bad. It's just very odd. I sort of don't know what my job is anymore, besides teaching.

I guess right now that is my job.

I had hoped to have a dissertation proposal done by the end of this semester, but I just don't think there's any way that's happening. I don't think I want to make it happen badly enough. I've spent the last month or so focused almost entirely on being a writer and it's been both enjoyable and very productive, so at least for now I'm sticking with it. This summer is for papers that will hopefully get published, and that'll also be dissertation proposal time, but for now I'm reclaiming my life. I'm doing so aggressively.

Comps proved to me that I can do academia. It also proved to me that there are hard limits on the degree to which I can be bothered to care about it. I'll almost certainly never be one of the shining stars in the department here. I'll almost certainly never be one of the students they talk up at conferences. I'm really okay with that. Life is so much bigger and better than fucking grad school.

Honestly, if we could live in a little town out west somewhere and I could teach part time and write books, I think that would be a pretty great life.

Got a couple more years left on the funding clock. We'll see what happens.

Know what we all need? More goddamn James.



I sing myself to sleep
A song from the darkest hour
Secrets I can't keep
In sight of the day
Swing from high to deep
Extremes of sweet and sour
Hope that God exists
I hope I pray

Drawn by the undertow
My life is out of control
I believe this wave will bear my weight
So let it flow


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02 April 2012 @ 01:16 pm
Saladin Ahmed: "Is 'Game of Thrones' Too White?
As an Arab-American writing fantasy fiction, I’ve been asked more than once whether fantasy’s race problem is in a better place now in the Age of Martin than it was in the Age of Tolkien. My short answer is yes, but honestly, I think such questions are almost beside the point.

Ultimately, A Song of Ice and Fire, like the Lord of the Rings, is the work of a brilliant and conscientious writer who is nonetheless writing in his own time and place. The United States in 2012 is, far too often, and even with a black president, still a culture rich in racist stereotypes and xenophobic fear-mongering. Expecting a writer to remain entirely unstained by this is expecting a person to live underwater without getting wet. If we still find troubling racial assumptions and caricatures in fantasy – whether on the page, or on the big or small screen — this probably tells us more about our culture-wide problems than it does about a single writer’s, or a single show’s issues. A Song of Ice and Fire is indeed our American Lord of the Rings, and if Westeros has its race problems, they are simply a powerful reflection of America’s.

Anna Holmes: "White Until Proven Black: Imagining Race in Hunger Games"
In addition to offering object lessons in bad reading comprehension, Hunger Games Tweets—there are now more than two hundred up on the blog—illuminated long-standing racial biases and anxieties. The a-hundred-and-forty-character-long outbursts were microcosms of the ways in which the humanity of minorities is often denied and thwarted, and they underscored how infuriatingly conditional empathy can be. (“Kk call me racist but when I found out rue was black her death wasn’t as sad,” wrote @JashperParas, who amended his tweet with the hashtag #ihatemyself.) They also beg the question: If the stories we tell ourselves about the future, however disturbing, don’t include black people; if readers of “The Hunger Games” are so blind as to skip over the author’s specific details and themes of appearance, race, and class, then what does it say about the stories we tell ourselves regarding the present?

...Perhaps the most telling: “Awkward moment when Rue is some black girl and not the little blonde innocent girl you picture,” she wrote. She cc’ed a friend on the tweet, @EganMcCoy.

“That tweet was very telling, in terms of a mentality that is probably very widespread,” says Adam, speaking softly from his office high above Toronto’s downtown financial district. He doesn’t sound angry, but he also isn’t amused. The phrases “some black girl” and “little blonde innocent girl” are ringing in my head as he talks, as are thoughts about how the heroes in our imaginations are white until proven otherwise, a variation on the principle of innocent until proven guilty that, for so many minorities, is routinely upended.

Adam tells me that, on the post featuring a screenshot of Alana’s tweet, he added, “Remember that word innocent? This is why Trayvon Martin is dead.”

I think these two pieces in juxtaposition call attention to a problem that white writers who want to include PoC in their stuff can often run into--or such is my impression. Being a white writer, I've run into it myself.

Not including PoC in one's fiction is... well, it's bad. I won't go so far to say that it's an unforgivable lapse, though I wouldn't quibble too much with someone who did want to say that. But it's bad. If nothing else, it isn't particularly truthful, even if you aren't writing about the contemporary world. People move around. Globalization isn't new and at this point it seems unlikely to go away. Different races and species and the complications inherent in their interactions are a lot of the meat of speculative fiction at its most interesting. And as NK Jemisin has pointed out, if you do, for some reason, want to envision a world where everyone is entirely white, that's troubling in itself, because it means that your fantasy literally erases people.

So you want PoC in your fiction. Maybe you want to make them central in your fiction. Great! Except as Ahmed's piece points out, the inclusion of PoC in fiction can be almost as problematic as leaving them out entirely. One probably knows the stereotypes and the caricatures; one hopefully wants to avoid them. But it's scary, because if you are a white writer attempting to write about PoC, you are by definition coming right smack up against the essence of your own privilege: What you have the luxury of not having to think about. You can use your imagination, you can read and listen and consider and try to do your best to capture an experience that is not and never can be yours, but if you really care about getting it right, the spectre of Fucking It Up is a terrifying one.

And I worry that, faced with that spectre, some well-meaning writers might not even try.

When Strange Horizons published "The Thick Night", I was scared as fuck. There was literally about a week beforehand where I was sure it was a horrible mistake. Because I'm white. Because I'm American and privileged beyond the wildest dreams of most of rest of the world. Because, despite a desire to be adventurous, I've spent more of my life than not very firmly sequestered in my comfort zone.

And did I get stuff wrong? Yeah. I did. No one's called me on any of it, but I'm sure I did. How could I not? There's just no way I could have gotten all of that right. There's no way I could have captured all of the richness and the horror and the terrible beauty of the experiences I was trying to put into words. It's impossible.

But I tried. And I thought really hard about it and I made myself deeply, existentially uncomfortable.

And maybe, for a baby step, that was an okay start.

Good resources for Not Fucking It Up:
* Writing the Other: A Practical Approach by Cynthia Ward and Nisi Shawl
* How to Write About Africa (Granta; additionally worth it for wry lols)
* From Margin to Center: Writing Characters of Color (Racialicious)

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30 March 2012 @ 03:39 pm
Read this: The War Against Youth.


Cynicism rises to fill the emptied space of exaggerated and failed hope. It's all simple math. If you follow the money rather than the blather, it's clear that the American system is a bipartisan fusion of economic models broken down along generational lines: unaffordable Greek-style socialism for the old, virulently purified capitalism for the young. Both political parties have agreed to this arrangement: The Boomers and older will be taken care of. Everybody younger will be on their own. The German philosopher Hermann Lotze wrote in the 1870s: "One of the most remarkable characteristics of human nature is, alongside so much selfishness in specific instances, the freedom from envy which the present displays toward the future." It is exactly that envy toward the future that is new in our own time.

And we will not talk about any of it. We will keep mum. We will hold our tongues lest we seem ageist, lest we seem bitter, lest we seem out of touch, lest we seem pessimistic, lest we seem divisive.

This is something that I've been thinking about for a while, but which I have yet to see many people articulate--and which this piece articulates very well. Just as we have a War on Women--and, as Trayvon Martin and the ensuing conservative pearl-clutching reminded us, a War on People of Color--we have a War on Youth. The economy and almost all of its related problems are fundamentally about the old devouring the resources of the young. Our parents' generation sold us for a pot of wealth and they lied to us to get us to buy into the deal.


Compared with their parents, high school kids who graduated from college into the teeth of the recession are a Republican fantasy. They want a good job in order to raise a family, and it's exactly that arrangement that is going to be denied them. The deal they were promised, that if you work hard and make smart choices you will have a good life, is not working out. A Great Disappointment will no doubt follow.

Everyone currently emerging into the workplace will be economically scarred for life by the misfortune of their timing. The initial wage loss for a worker emerging in a bad economy is 6 to 7 percent for every 1 percentage point increase in the unemployment rate, which means a twenty-one-year-old starting a job today makes about 24 percent less than he or she would have five years ago. After fifteen years, even during the good times, the wage loss still hovers at around 2.5 percent.

...The situation is obviously unsustainable: At the exact moment when the United States and all other Western countries are trying to deal with aging populations, they are failing to capture the energy and potential of the people who will have to work to support those aging populations. We have arrived at a moment, just before the 2012 election, in which the hedges, the corner-cuts, the isolated decisions about young people from a host of institutions have accrued to the point of a continuous catastrophe. The question rises from the wreckage: How long can you eat the young?

This is also true of the developing world and climate change: the First World essentially made the same deal with the Third World that the Boomers have made with the Millennials.

Play by our rules. Accept loans on our terms. Industrialize according to our guidelines. Accept our military bases and our troops into your borders. Buy our expensive goods. Sell yours to us at the low prices that we set. Submit to our markets. If you do this, you can one day be like us. You can be wealthy and powerful and prosperous, and don't worry about your natural resources or your burgeoning population who all want to eat steak and burgers and fried chicken like we do, and drive our big cars and live in big houses, because we'll develop sustainable energy sources and forms of agriculture so by the time you're where we are, we can pass the technology on to you.

Do what we say. Trust us. It'll be fine. Just don't look behind the curtain.

More infographs because I like them. )

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Before being escorted off the House floor for violating dress code rules, Rep. Rush called for an end to racial profiling and said that Luke 4:18 teaches us that “The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to set the oppressed free.”

The United States Congress: Where it's fine to get all christiany about what women choose to do with their own bodies but considerably less fine to proclaim Jubilee.

I keep wanting to write something articulating the disgust and revulsion I feel for my country's entire political system these days but words consistently fail me.

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27 March 2012 @ 07:02 am
Good news: Scheherazade's Facade is fully funded. And then some. So it's going to be an actual book, in digital and dead tree editions. Fantastic work, all. Thanks so much to everyone who helped.

And--just tossing this out there--if the number somehow slips up to $10k, the editor will put together a second installment of the anthology that focuses on science fiction. Which I think is nifty as hell.

Not So Good News: Looks like I'm not going to WisCon after all, due to a scheduling conflict that is on me for missing but which I couldn't really have done much about even if I'd noticed it back when it happened. It's one of those things that's not technically anyone's fault, but I've spent the last twelve hours just incredibly annoyed and trying not to direct that annoyance at anyone who doesn't actually deserve it. Which, again, is no one. Except possibly me.

I'm considering trying to get to Worldcon instead, but God, that membership fee. Ugh. Maybe Readercon? I don't know. Bleh.

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25 March 2012 @ 06:40 pm
Sometimes I wish I could just kind of hand people a card when I meet them that says My crippling shyness can at times resemble standoffishness. Don't be fooled. I desperately want to be friends with you.

Meh.

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22 March 2012 @ 10:09 pm
I've spent the last 48 hours--you know, really, the last few months--in a pit of helpless, hopeless rage and disgust and then I just read this and it kind of made me want to cry because of All The Feelings.
I have been getting pretty visceral lately with my anger and it comes up in strange ways, hot wide surges of fury as unthwartable as magma, and I don't always like it either but what else do you do. The older I get the fewer fucks I give. These days I am an open wound, a walking gash--oh, do you see what I did there--a woman whose anger radiates outward like a heat haze. I am angry about a lot more than Jonathan Franzen--I am an ace at anger, a real multitasker of fury. I am large, I contain multitudes. I have energy to spare, believe me, I have energy to fire up a nuclear bomb. I can be angry about so many things at once, I can be angry about the big things and the little ones, the massive injustice of Trayvon Martin and the gnat that is Jonathan Franzen's opinions, I can be angry about the abortion ban that just passed in Mississippi and the books that are being banned in Arizona, and I am not in any way saying that these things are the same things, that they are weighted equally, but we have to live with all of them, and here's the thing. Nobody, but nobody, gets to tell me what to be angry about. What it is and is not okay to be angry about. I think you know how to be angry about a lot of things, too. I think you know anger is not a pie: there is always more to go around. Let us never be less inventive than the people who hate us, do you understand? Our thoughts be bloody or nothing fucking worth.

I don't know how to do anything else other than be angry and if I had the answer I would give it to you, believe me, if I had the secret, the secret that would make it okay, the secret that would make sense of all this shit, I would give it to you, but I don't have that. What I have is rage and also maybe some love. Love for the warriors, the fools, the people who are also crazy, the people who are giving up but never, ever giving in. Fucking Cool Hand Luke, all of us. We're not going to win but we'll die trying. And I am telling you that if you are fighting I love you, if you are standing up I love you, if you are refusing to back down I love you, and we will find each other, we will. I promise. I can't tell you how to make sense of it but I can tell you there are more of us than you think. What I am saying, really, is that I want you to be angry, all of you, I want you to be angrier than you have ever been in your lives, I want you to be a fucking beacon of white-hot rage burning so bright no one around you can miss it. Whatever it takes to stoke the fire. I want us to be so loud and so angry and so visible and so terrifying that we cannot be mistaken for anything other than the future, a future that looks like us. In all our kinds of bodies, in all our kinds of love. Waiting for the time when none of us are angry anymore because the only thing left is the world we want to live in. When the hardest thing any of us will know is teaching ourselves how to live without anger altogether.

Until then: whatever it takes and fucking fight.

I have a lot to say about all of this but I think it has to wait.

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19 March 2012 @ 03:07 pm
So a while back I was making a fairly big deal out of This American Life's broadcast of "Mr. Daisey and the Apple Factory", Mike Daisey's wrenching monologue about his trip to China and the Foxconn factory where many Apple products are made. Which is now apparently either mostly or entirely untrue. Mike Daisey made it up. He made it up and then didn't tell people that he made it up, he says, because the result was great theater, great work, and because--even more importantly--it made people care about this stuff.

TAL has broadcast an entire show's worth of retraction and post-mortem discussion and investigation on how and why exactly this happened, and it is just as worth listening to as the original show was--and it is just as difficult to listen to in places. Daisey attempts to explain himself, and at times he even attempts to defend himself, and as someone who spends a lot of their time storytelling, who believes that stories are some of the most powerful and important things that we as a species possess, it's fucking agonizing. It hurts.

But it also gets me thinking, and especially so given what's just happened with Kony 2012 and Invisible Children. Daisey justifies his lies and exaggerations and oversimplifications in the name of "making people care." He claims that when people listen to his monologues, they understand that it's just theater and as such it deals in a different kind of truth than journalism does. They'll go home and investigate the truth for themselves. Ira Glass makes no bones about not buying this, but Daisey clearly needs to.

I've already stated my position on whether I think there's anything much to this kind of justification. But I think there are a lot of points of connection to be drawn between these two cases. At what price "awareness"? What is awareness even worth? How do we consume media now, when media is increasingly all that there is? How do we know what we know? What difference does it make?

Stories are some of the most powerful things we possess. They're deep magic from the dawn of time. Perhaps we should be more careful with them than we are.

[oh, hey, yeah] Aaron Bady has a great piece on this exact thing, wherein he draws additional connections to Tom McMaster's "Gay Girl in Damascus" hoax and the fifth season of The Wire: "The Jimmy McNulty Gambit."

In fact, this is precisely the problem that empowers the Mike Daisey's and Tom MacMaster's to get creative: because reality won't cut it, isn't outrageous enough, we must sex up the story for it to get any traction, and it must get traction, it MUST. Children literally working their fingers to the bone? That's outrageous. But children who grow up into a world of endless toil, one that offers little human dignity or hope of self-realization but only metaphorically "works their fingers to the bone" will produce little outrage. That's normal, our normal. Yawn. And that "yawn" at what is and should be maddeningly outrageous is not even a new problem: Upton Sinclair thought that when people read The Jungle, they would get upset about the capitalism, about the working conditions, about the crushing and cruel exploitation. In fact, people got upset about the thought that there was rat shit in their food.

Beyond the narcissism, this is where the lies come from, and where the belief comes from that a lie is true, must be. The truth is not enough, these people think; I have to tell the story that will get results, results that will testify to their deeper truth.

But the deeper problem, I think, is that telling stories is the only way these people can conceptualize getting results. And because appealing to the public sphere to be scandalized and to demand reforms is the only kind of result they can envision - because this is how they imagine justice works - the story will inevitably become what it needs to be to appeal to that kind of conscience, whatever will appeal to that sense of the public's fickle taste. No one in the West will care about the reality of Syrian repression, thinks Tom MacMaster; I need to invent an Angelic White Victim to speak in place of those whose stories are not, as such, sufficiently compelling to compel action can only speak and be unheard.

Very worth reading. He neatly articulates a lot of what I was fumbling around with.

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19 March 2012 @ 12:35 am


Welcome to spring, everyone.

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18 March 2012 @ 01:05 am


I have never been brought to tears by a video game before.

...On the second time through.

This is really not like anything else I've ever played.

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